“Merge” New WIP

It's been a month (ok maybe months) since I sat down to meditate... not sure why. I guess it's been a bit chaotic in life lately, which is ironic because that's when I need to center myself and create peace the most, but it just hasn't happened. My life felt out of balance again, things were changing and I wasn't sure I was ready for these changes. Things at work changed and things at home changed. I moved (again), some relationship dynamic changes that I was not ready for happened, and on top of it all August also included some work travel. My spirit guides must have been screaming at me to sit down and connect, but alas, I was way too busy with life. Part of me does not mind change if it is tied to the outside 3D world practical stuff (mutable Sag sun, Virgo moon), but if it's tied to something more emotional then my fixed Scorpio stellium comes out and freaks out (Ascendant, Pluto, Mercury & Venus).

This morning I did a quick meditation. I sat down in my quiet spot, before coffee and before food, just me and my buzzing head full of too many thoughts, and I tried to clear my head. Lasted about 15-20 min. In that moment when I was done, I was not sure whether it did anything for me. Maybe I was out of practice, maybe I tried too hard, or maybe I need to stop thinking, but what I am realizing is that a lot of my creative ideas for art come from the meditation sessions. Maybe not directly from the meditation itself, but it helps me clear my head from too many 3D thoughts and connect with my spirit. After this quick meditation, I decided I would paint something today. Something small, something quick and without much thought.

Easier said than done, like always I have to sit down and actually plan this out (inner Virgo over-analyzing lol), so I pulled out my sketchbook and off I went to doodle. Actually, I mostly mindlessly scrolled through instagram for a bit. (Social media, a killer of creativity and ideas)

I was listening to a podcast when this idea popped into my head. The divine dance between the divine feminine and divine masculine and how we have to merge these energies within us to create balance in life. Life is all about balance, so we too have to balance our inner yin/yang as well as with those we connect with spiritually.

So above you see my current work in progress of a painting I am calling "Merge". It's a small 8x8 oil painting. I will try not to overwork or over think this one.

Stay tuned for an update at some point.

If you made it through this post, thanks, you must really enjoy my boring stuff. :)

Update 10/03: 🙃